'The Kids From Yesterday' is the one song right now that brings me back to real life. The fact that I am nearing sixteen as the days pass, and that I just want to get it over with. I spent my weekend in Trimble County with family. Sure, they aren't legally my family, but I think I am closer with them than I am the other side of my family, with the whites. [i know, my names are all fucking colors. watch me marry a red. we can make salmon!]
As I was spending time with the Martinez family, it just made me realize that I am more mature than their two youngest, the older one of the two being my age. Although I love Rebecca, she was freaking out over any little thing. I felt like the mediator. I am a really calm person when I am away from school, believe it or not. I like to be quiet and avoid all arguments. But there was an event that this girl named Micah called REPEATEDLY for over an hour and I just realized "wow. i am the only one not upset by this." maybe i am an old woman.
But it also started to make me think about what I want to do with my life - where I want to go. We were driving around and flipping stations, and I could name almost every song or artist of the songs they were talking about. Music is the only thing I really connect to, and they all really noticed that because they continued to mention it. I hope one day I can have a loving family like that, where we all sit around and talk and genuinely care about one another. I love them and I want to go back everyday.
Sadly though, they live close to Oldham county and I wont get to see them very often. Becca and i had a lot in common, despite the fact that she was arguing with fellow teenagers and I told her to calm herself, and things along those lines.
i think I have the mind of a 25 year old hippie.
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