i just found my pictures from projekt revolution in 2007, when i saw my chem live the first time.

it amazes me that i also found pictures of myself in fifth grade, when i found them.

i just find it so crazy how i barely remember anything from my childhood, but those pictures that i jsut found brought me to tears.

i always used to wish that i was grown up, and that i would be the coolest kid when i got to be sixteen, but here i am, three months and eight days from it, and im the biggest loser i know.

funny how things change like that, right?

but the part that didnt ever change, was my favorite band that got me through so much.

i miss being nine years old, skipping through the hallways with my best friend and being made fun of for it. Then nothing mattered. we were so young and popularity wasnt an issue.

my biggest problem with someone was that they were "trying to be just like me" 

but now, it is me being worried for that same girl that i became friends with, and how different her life is going to be when she has her child.

its funny how everything changes so fast, yet somethings stay constant. 

most people say that their friends and family stays constant through their lives, or their lovers, but it was never that way for me.

Now, i am going to turn up my stereo and hope that I can find my best friend Megan from 4-H camp and her girlfriend on facebook.