i had a completely lovely conversation with my lovely this afternoon.
"so don't fake it. let yourself be who you are. and then you'll find true happiness. because when you fake it, it closes doors to true happiness. just be you."
"people tease you because they're jealous, and afraid of change. don't be afraid of who you are. the people you tease you now are the ones who will be stuck in pathetic lives. keep your head high and spit in the face of any motherfucker who says anything to you."
"you don't have to be scared. there is nothing this world can do that can touch you."
"you have the capability to do anything, anything at all. you can make it for two years, and then you'll be free to be you, and do what you want."
"you have me, you have your music and hopes and dreams. you have everything to live for."
"i'm tougher now, i know how to stand up for myself, how to throw a punch, and how to protect the people i love. the shit we go through only makes us stronger."

my lovely tells me the most wonderful things. i don't know where i'd be without her. maybe i'll start tomorrow a little better - a little bit happier. maybe wearing some of my concert outfit will make me feel better. i hope so.


THIS WAS WRITTEN YESTERDAY AND JUST NOW GOT POSTED BECAUSE OF STORMS. OKAY.