I'm so lucky to have the thing that makes me happy. I'm especially lucky to have four men that love me so much. That show tonight was absolutely amazing. I don't even know how to put it into words. The gratification of seeing the hero you've looked up to for so many years, look right at you smile and point was the best thing in the world.
Anyone around me gets the fake happy megan all the time, but i think i can be real again. real after 4 years of masking.
Walking up to that crowd of kids where even /I/ didn't notice that one of our own MCRmy Chicago kids was a serious burn victim was surprising. The fact that as soon as I walked in... it was like seeing friends I haven't seen in years. Knowing that every single person in the room with me was saved or helped by these men in front of me. These men that changed me forever and we all had a similar interest - the four men we love.
I led in a troop of 10 kids that had never seen an MCR show before. It was the roughest crowd I've ever delt with, but not because we hated each other like usual, we all wanted to be close and to be ourselves.
MCRmy kids all have two things in common - the love of MCR, and the fact that no one there is sane. No one. No one is normal. No one is plain. No one has been the priveliged kid. No one is higher up than the others. No on is an elitist. No one is a snob. No one is there to put you down.
I never had to buy food or drinks - everyone brought food and shared. My Sunny D was a huge hit in the rainstorm.
There were cookies, cakes, ice creams, pizzas, potatoes, everything. Only thing we didn't have was a toilet.
It was cold, it was rainy, it was windy. the weather sucked. but i made so many new friends. i feel so much better.
i was saved 5 times by kids that don't even know my name. i found my family and i'm not fuckin' letting go.
i love you, chicago mcrmy. and trisha, jackie, sarah, abby, mitchell, and tarah.
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