we've been having problems and they're all my fault and I'm sorry. I feel so bad for bringing things up. I hide everything with humor and ugh. I am so sorry, my god. you're going to hate me forever and by the time this is over i'll be so upset and hurt. you're going to leave me. ugh. i feel so bad. im sorry. im sorry im sorry im sorry. i love you so much and i hate that i did this.

i can't even think a coherent thought.