paranoia.

after my classes today, i went into mother midkiffs room like i always do when i see her door that is open, and we started to have a discussion about random things like always. my favorite part was of our phobias.
it immediately got me thinking on the bus ride home - why are these things implanted into our minds? is it out overruling government that likes to make us think that we need to not only be this picture perfect being, but also that we must live these clean lives that just strip us of our natural insticts?
like myself- i have a strong phobia of raw meats. i understand exactly where it comes from, because i, myself, am strange about life. due to the fact that personally i do not believe that you continue on to another world like most people believe, you must live this life to the complete fullest that you have. whether this means you are in an animal form,a child, an adult, or otherwise, what right do we have to take the life away from something else? I know for a fact that I wouldnt like to be raised simply for food. I dont even like the idea of family owned farms raising cattle for slaughter around their children. there is simply something demented about raising betty the family cow to take her together to the family slaughter house and chop off her limbs for  thanksgiving dinner with moms side of the family, who bought her for their daughter as her first pet and drank her excess milk with their cereal every morning.
if our government didnt influence us to have these germ-paranoid belifs, would we still live in caves? would we have the ideas that we have?
as much as i love my president, the government before him makes me wonder.