on possibilities and leaving.

i went to a show tonight at boney junes with my best friend, kaeley. the show was fun, all locals that sold things for cheap, and we just had an awesome time. There were about 20 people there that werent in the bands, and that was perfectly fine with me. Less crowds are way more fun.
But in this experience tonight, I was thinking. As always. What do I want to do with my life? I know I want to be in the music industry somewhere after high school, but where do i go? What degree do i shoot for? What schools offer this? How the hell am I going to end up as a tour manager if i start in audio engineering?




So, being me, I went to the sound guy who works there. Tonight, the sound was better than usual. It wasnt the sameold guy who usually does it and messes it up. It was a younger guy named Scott, who was really sweet. After the show, I just went right up to him, and asked him, simply, how he got his job. He started with a bland answer, saying that he just asked for such a job. That couldnt be true, so I dug deeper, asking him where he went to college, and told him that it was what I wanted to do for a living.
This guy grinned so big just then that it made me light up. He gaveme a high five, and told me to go some places in Indiana - Purdue, Vincinnes, wtc, for Audio Engineering or Production. I thanked him, and he went back to packing up his absolutely beautiful sound equipment.
i have never been more excited to get away from hancock county as i am right now. its possible. its in my grasp.
Since I might be moving to Grandview, IN,  its all so possible.
My best friend is leaving me on the 18th to move to a bigger city and come so much closer to realistic life. She has so many more choices in evansville than I do being stuck here. I am honestly not sure what I am going to do on the 18th. I will be getting on a plane to go to Orlando on vacation, and she will be moving an hour and a half from me. What the hell am i supposed to do?
She is going to be living with me this week - tuesday, wednesday and thursday.   Leona is not going to be happy with this, but she is taking my life line away from me. i just hope that this doesnt knock me down and cause me to panic like i did when casey left.
i dont want to hit that again, it was horrible. i just hope i can get to grandview, a shot distance from evansville next year.