i'm only using this blog because my tumblr is at its daily limit.

why would you move on to another girl when you have feelings for the one before and you know that the one before would give up her life for you? being their best friend isn't going to be helpful.
and ignoring their text messages doesn't help either.

i relapsed tonight.
they are small and not going to cause any harm, but they still got the job done and i feel very numb and in control of myself for a while.