I have decided that this is Ivy's song. the end.

i want a really inappropriate boyfriend.

not one that is all sexually inappropriate, but totally doesn't fit what people think i would date. i want a boy who is scruffy and has chub on him and wears tacky clothes and leather jackets with me. a boy who will drink beer in the back of a truck with me but not to get drunk, but just because it's his favorite drink. a boy who will totally let me drive his truck into cardboard boxes and random shit just for the hell of it. I want a boy who doesn't want to go to parties, but would rather stay home and play video games all night. someone who will marry me one day and own ten thousand dogs, most of which are big enough for me to ride like a horse. i want someone who will send me text messages or twitter updates from across the room because he doesn't feel like climbing over all the animals to get to me because they are being too cute to disturb. A boy who doesn't give a fuck what I look like and doesn't mind that I am more than likely one of the guys.  A boy who will start a band with me or a record label with me. A boy who will give me a whole room in the house for my guitars or other instruments, or will teach my to play drums, even if he's an amateur too.

one of those would be fabulous.

please excuse me but this makes me angry.

so i was thinking about what clothes i am going to wear tomorrow, and how i reaaally want to wear my laser guns shirt or jacket. then, i remember that i can't do that because of the school dress-code. well, i know what i would like to do. i would like to make a shirt that reads :
" Called me names. Made me want to die. Maybe I can find a way to make you all go away.

I never lied. Never cried. Never fell. Never crawled. I'm just like you, now you'll pay - with your life.

I'll paint the lockers with your brains. "

just to prove a point. Just to prove to them that shirts with laser guns or guns in general aren't as powerful as the words to that song, or the really disturbing ones that i could have posted on here. It really irks me that a picture of guns disturbs them more than those words. We can preach in Hancock County, but we will be teased and made fun of for the rest of our lives if we go against whatever Mrs. Nevitt or Mr. Price says. God forbid we say something or do something out of the norm.

It also irks me that I will never be able to wear a LeATHERMOUTH shirt because they all say things like : "whos the killer? Theres so much blood. I feel nothing. There's so much blood." or "I'll paint the lockers with your brains".

;jkndfjdgdfgw.

end rant.

what is Arkham Asylum is really just reality?

thats how i feel about everyday. just... dead. as soon as i get home and into my reality where the only thing keeping me sane is whatever pumps into my headphones, i become this melancholy being that doesn't do anything. i become emotionless.

maybe we are all just comic book characters in DC's comic book worlds that they create.

i would like to believe that there is a woman inside of me that is green and creates little plants that can control anyone that they want. i call her Poison Ivy.

i have a best friend. her name is harley. i love her more than anything. you may also know her as Hannah, Waldo, or Ha. no matter what she will always be my harley.

http://charlesatnc.com/images/

stealing hannahs 30 days post.

10 facts about me.

1. from the ages of 9-11 i thought that if I dressed like a boy, then I was a boy. 
2. i hang out with boys more than girls. i find that even though they dont mature very fast, they are more fun and more accepting.
3. my friends mostly live in other states. 
4. if I get into the Theatre Arts academy, my life is going to change forever.
5. I love Chemistry.
6. if i could meet the guys who saved my life, I would die happy.
7. I dont ever want to own a house. I would rather have a studio apartment in the subways of NYC than have a mortgage payment.
8. the kid I used to look up to more than anyone else disappoints me so much now.
9. there is an addictive personality trait in my family that has never skipped a generation.
10. i dont fear anything besides police, spiders, and weather.

 a photo of yourself from at least 1 year ago.

it is such a shame that you are such a disappointment to me now.

you will never have my respect again after that day in july. 

a photo that makes you happy.

you make me so proud to be an original fan, grant.

hardly anything makes me happier than showing up to a Breathe Electric show and you still remember my name. We need to go out to dinner again.

a photo of a place youd like to visit.

strawberry fields, nyc.

a photo that makes you laugh.

fourteenth birthday party.

a photo of someone you love.

frank iero & jamia nestor. 

have to even out my weird love for him with his love for his beautiful wife.

a photo of something you stand for.

one of the dozens of causes i stand for.

a photo of something you enjoy doing.

moshpits are the best things in life.

a photo of yourself as a baby.

a photo of the person who has gotten you through the most.

gerard arthur way, you have saved my life on more than one occasion.

happy 10 year anniversary, My Chemical Romance.

a photo of a night you loved.

"i am going to be really blunt. you are all terrifying on stage. you all make this horrible terrifying face."

"QUICK. EVERYONE MAKE THE STAGE FACE."

a photo of when you were happy.

all time low. the coolest guys ever.

one of your favorite memories.

warped tour 2010.

one of your favorite movies.

someone you cant imagine your life without.

harley quinn. i think i could live without the joker, but not without my harley.

a photo of you and a family member.

lily - i pretend she is my daughter. i love her more than life itself.

a photo of someone who inspires you.

no one inspires me more than these boys.

a photo from a trip youll never forget.

the wizarding world of harry potter.

a photo of something that has has a huge impact on your life recently.

a photo and a letter.

Kaeley Gilliam - 

you know how much you mean to me. you are the best friend i have ever had in my entire life and i miss you so much. it has been about a month and a half since i saw you last, and i am dying. your stuff is still in my locker and it almost feels as if i have lost a limb. you were my best friend and the entire reason i ever went to school. we can always be each other around one another, and i feel like if i am not careful, we will lose that. i need you to come back into my life asap. i love you and i hope everything is okay in evansville. there are so many things i want to tell you about. i am going to stop here before i start crying.

a photo of something you're afraid of.

a photo of someone you find attractive.

no.. not just attractive. just the most beautiful man i have ever laid my eyes on.

that is more fitting.

a photo of someone you associate a good memory with.

"thanks so much for everything, megan. really."

a photo of something you want to do one day.

fall in love and have a beautiful relationship just like theirs.

a photo of what you want to be when you grow up.

i am counting on you, Theatre Arts Academy.

a photo of someone you want to trade places with for a day.

a photo of your favorite subject in school.

music theory makes me sane.

a photo of something you are looking forward to.

a photo of your favorite person from history.

what about people?

a photo of something you find beautiful.

this is an appreciation post for my favorite people in the world.

“These guys have been together for 10 years, and they’re still legitimately best friends. The first night I went out with them, the four of them went up the street to get a pack of cigs or something. I looked up, and they’re in a group hug going up the street, still psyched to be doing what they’re doing, together. Who wouldn’t want to be a part of that?”

 “Oh man. Billie Joe from Green Day influenced everything about how I play guitar. He just made it look so easy. He was the first person I aped. And if it wasn’t for Green Day I wouldn’t have picked up the guitar. The band couldn’t believe it when we heard the news, I got the call and I was in the street in New York City and it was pouring rain, but I was just yelling and people were staring at me. And that was everybody’s response. I think Bob fell down a flight of stairs when he heard the news..”

“You’re going to come across a lot of shitty bands, and a lot of shitty people. And if anyone of those people call you names because of what you look like, or because they don’t accept you for who you are. I want you to look right at that motherf****r, stick up your middle finger, and scream F**K YOU!