happy birthday to one of the four loves of my life.

I'll see you in 7 days. 

kyle jackson.

i'm so proud of you it's insane.
sometimes i wish that i had that kind of strength.

“I realised that if anything were to ever happen to me, I would want my daughter to know that her dad and his band were not victims."

I've always said I will never have children. That they are just a bother. But lately, I've been feeling this need to protect everyone around me. I need to grow up and finish college so I can find someone to love forever and have a baby girl to take care of. I think that is what I want from my life now. My animals were working for a while of something to take care of, but they grow up really fast and don't need protecting anymore. Plus, imagine someone as musical and creative as myself with children in a big city. Fuck, they'd be awesome kids.
I can't wait to be 25 or 30.

lets all just face it.

This is my biggest fear.

I'll never fall in love and I'll never be truley happy.

there are still days where i miss you. those days aren't very often, but this song still makes me heart skip a beat every once in a while. this song will always mean everything to me. i loved you.

GUESS WHATS COMING IN THE MAIL SOON?

MY KILLJOY JACKETS
HELL TO THE YEAH

it still comes in waves.

i feel so guilty about missing her, but there are days when I just can't help it.