So I just spent some quality time with Victoria and Katie tonight. I feel like maybe Katie and I might get close again. I think it might be because we had some not so fantastic events in our lives and I kind of love it.
I love the fact that we might become friends again. I missed it.
We talked about My Chemical Romance and felt like we were in fifth grade again and it was awesome.
It honestly made me want to go back to how i used to be. how i used to do things like she does now, or things she wont do anymore.
I kind of miss it.
"It's like a social experiment slash art project. We're trying to like, change the world and help a lot of people."
"We are now looked up to to by hundreds and thousands of kids..."
"When the curtian opens, I finally feel like there is this band that is... speaking for me. I'm inspired and I'm gonna find the way on my own."
"The only thing we ever encouraged you to do was to be yourself, and don't take anybodys fucking shit."
"If everybody in that audience goes out and feels better about themselves, then we did our job."
"You're going to be going to rock shows for the rest of your natural lives, right ladies? You're going to see skeezy ass rock dudes in shitty ass rock dudes asking you to show them your tits for a backstage pass. You know what I want you to do? I want you to spit. right. in their fucking face."
"all your quirks, even your failures and your depressions... that's what makes you you."
i partially wish i had plans this weekend, and the other half of me is glad i don't really because I want to spend the last weekend of being 15 just spending time with my favorite thing - my stereo.
I made it into my Theatre Arts Academy. I found out today. I don't know what to think, honestly. I mean, I am upset because I won't get to be involved in Marching Band, and Mr. Benningfield probably won't allow me
to just do concert season - I just won't be able to do Marching Season and get all my credit hours in, along with my internship hours, prepare two presentations, and all of the other things that are going to have to happen. I don't even know if I will be able to take all the art classes and music classes i wanted to take.
I am so worried about it all, but I don't even care at this point. I just want to get started, Fuck Sophomore Year, hello Junior Year.
I'm tired of it all.
I'm tired of everyone at my school thinking that I'm a lesbian.
It really shouldn't phase me and it is partially my fault, but at the same time it isn't.
Sure, I hang out with boys.
Sure, I would rather wear Leather than Lace.
Sure, I don't dress up.
Sure, I'm not the most attractive.
But do all of those things add up to me being a lesbian?
Absolutely not.
Plus, I find it really offensive to call someone a 'lesbian' or 'their gay friend' or 'gay' in general.
That one thing about them is not their name.
I go off on people about this a lot, as well as people using 'gay' as a derrogatory term.
Last time I checked, heterosexual people and homosexual people are still both people.
if you eliminate the word that has to do with their sexual orientation, what are you left with?
People.
We are all people.
"After The Black Parade was done, I tried to write songs or just little bits and pieces, it just felt really weird not doing it - with the guys. I would write like a verse or a chorus, or just bits of a song and be like "This... this just doesn't feel right." and I would just shelve it."
I only have days until the show. I need my party poison jacket or my leather jacket, a pair of completely ripped up jeans, lace stockings, a homemade shirt and a painted american flag. Kaeley needs to get the tent too.
I am so excited. I'm gonna go make a chain.
