So there are days when I really sit and think about my relationship and right now is one of those.
Although none of my feelings for Bethany have changed, it still makes me think. Am I doing the right thing? Am I willing to wait potentially forever and never see her face? Or do I move along with my life and go after Lizzeh or Lacey? No one that ever enjoys my company is ever attractive - and besides, that really isn't the issue.

But Lacey... She actually asked me on a date. A real date. With food and movies and snuggles. Something I can't ge with Bethany. Physical touch. I can read words on a screen for a long time, but sagger a while it feels like I am dating a character in a novel. Something I will never sewe or touch. Especially when it comes to times like this.... Hr webcam hasn't worked since October.

When I can see her face it brings back all that light and happiness. it makes me feel like a real person. I can still be free and do anything I want when I'm out in public, but I will always have the inkling that says "leave her! Hook up!" but I can't bring myself to do it. Does everyone in a reallylong distance relationship feel this way?

"oh, you have the hot sub today," - Danica
"but your idea of hot and my idea of hot are two different things." - Me
"true. My idea of cute isn't the same as anyone elses." -Danica
"if he dent look like he's homeless, he's not cute." - Me
"well... He looks very..." - Danica
"like he has a home?" - Me